Thursday, April 29, 2010

That's Exactly What's Happened Here Tonight

man, i’m the one
and you should let the boys know too[two]
show them niggas every single thing i showed you
i’m here feeling like 50 back in ‘02
and everybody saying i’m the man…so true
but what does it take to feel secure
a place with wooden floors
space to put awards
a couple of parking spots
maids to do the chores
the cars you always wanted
the women that you adore
well i got it, i got it
i wonder if i’d be happy without it
i doubt it
i really try not to think about it
i made it but i’m still playing like i’m being scouted
til’ i’m outed
game time bitch
i know your proud of us
king james shit!
watch me throw the powder up
this og got my whole suite clouded up
and i bet you i’ll be out of town
before i’m outta luck
they ain’t rooting for me
they ain’t clapping for me
i’m always saying “can’t someone just be happy for me?”
i really hate to say i told you so.
so i bite my tongue,…but you know you know.

This is the stuff that has me excited for Drake's "Thank Me Later." "Over," "Find Your Love," and "Shut It Down" are sorta subpar, but I can't wait to hear the finished product. "Fireworks," "Miss Me," and "Light Up" are going to carry the album, at least I hope so.

Francis and the Lights



I gave their other stuff a try; it just didn't really resonate well with me. This stuff is pretty cool though

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Motherfuckers Around You

I don't feel very comfortable when I have pressure to make use of every minute of my time. Having pressure to dedicate the next hour of my life to writing an essay and the hour after that on running through homework makes me really uneasy. I've figured that a big part of who I am wants to minimize that time in my day and to maximize the time in my day that I can spend doing nothing or at least have peace of mind in knowing that I can afford to not do anything too productive with my time.

As with most things, there are pros and cons to having this pressure, as there are pros and cons to having down time. I have to live with the cons of my lax lifestyle, seeing as I like to maximize my down time. I'm constantly adjusting my lifestyle to place myself in a position where i can live with the cons, while maximizing my enjoyment of the pros.

This Isn't Tom and Jerry

These things are absolutely vicious.

Note: Not for the squeamish or easily offended

Monday, April 26, 2010

Standing In a Field of Daisies

I found myself writing lines in my head today. These past few posts are all that I have to show for it. Writing this all out helped me to realize some things about writing poetry/lyrics/whatever these are. I'll get into the ideas this writing provoked before I put up what I've written.

First, it is really difficult to end your piece of writing with something fitting enough to end it all with. I really wanted to end these with some really cool punchlines, but nothing came to mind worth putting down, so I'm left with stories with no ending.

Second, neither of these are too personal. I know that most of the art that I consider great comes from very deep and very personal parts of artists, so when I try to bring out the artistic side in me, this is one of the first things I take into consideration. However, these two bodies of work aren't too personal to me. I guess they're personal in the sense that I was able to think of these lines because of my past experiences, ideas, thoughts, and feelings, but neither is directed to or written about one person in particular. In actuality, I don't think any of them are about anything in particular. They definitely aren't very specific, at least.

To be honest, I'm a little bit afraid of writing anything too personal. I know it'd make for some good writing, but I'd have to choose something really near and dear to me. Then I'd have to go and write something so eloquent that it matches how much that event means to me. I think that it'd be too daunting a task. Even if I were to complete something like that, I'd always question the quality of that work.

Hopefully I can keep working on writing stuff, and I'll be able to build on everything I've done. I'm gunna be sure to eventually write things that hit closer to home for me. I also hope to be able to finish off these kinds of things with a fitting enough ending. Having to cut these things short gives me such a big feeling of disappointment.

3

Damn I just can't believe this shit
I feel like I'm going crazy
My thoughts are flowing freely
But my dreams are getting hazy
I swear I'm trying my hardest, man
I'm putting in all this effort
I just hope all this happiness
Will last me until November
I'm under the umbrella
That thinks you should never say never
And all of this is great, you know
I want this shit forever
But I'm keepin it real
I know it might not last
So we should enjoy it all
Let's not forget about our past
Because we can't simply go
And sweep it under the rug
Just because it was bittersweet
Had pros and cons, just like a drug
So let's soak it all in
Every little memory
All the inside jokes
About "dishonoring your famiry"
Let's also remember all the times
That we fought and disagreed
It might not be very pleasant
But there's definitely a need
To remember it for what it was
And not what it wasn't, because you see

2

As much as I hate to admit it
You know I'm scared shitless
That you don't like what we have
And you're planning out how to quit this
Maybe that's the source of my fear
Maybe that's why I'm afraid
That you don't realize what I've been through
The dues that I've gone and paid
Cuz I'm putting in twice the effort
That I lead you on to believe
Putting us in a position
For us together to succeed
So when it doesn't work out well
I end up feeling the need
To somehow make it up to you
Or maybe this is greed?
Who am I to be so lucky
To have everything I possess
What have I done to deserve this?
I guess I'll just confess
That it might look like I know what I'm doing
But I'm just trying to impress
It affects everything I do
All the way down to how I dress
I guess I'm thinking too much?
Maybe it's for the best?
But I do appreciate the fact
That you're putting me to the test
So if you're having second thoughts
Then I guess I can't really blame you
Just know that all of this is real
I don't think I could ever hate you
I love everything about you
I've seen your best and I've seen your worst
Is this because of that one time
I had a fiery outburst?
I still don't know why we're through
I guess maybe we're just cursed?
Looks like we're not gunna last
But I love you because you were my first

1

I always find myself wondering
What is it that you see in me?
Do you see my cocky side
Or rather notice my insecurity?
Is it enough for me to be kind
Or do I need to be more?
Because I'm growing less and less sure
That I'm kind-hearted to the core
Trust that I'm doing my best to please
Each and every one of you
But you can bet your bottom dollar that
I'm not doing any of this because of you
Rather, I'm making the decisions that I make
To make myself happy, to make myself proud
And I do it by the book
I do it by following what's allowed
Cuz while you're steady trying to find shortcuts
Trying to find the easy way out
I'm still doing everything you're doing and more
That's a big part of what I'm about
Cuz I'll accomplish everything a cheater can
And even more on top of that
All while having a sense of honor
And keeping my integrity intact
Cuz when I was growing up
My Dad and I had made a pact
To do the right thing
To never stray, and that's a fact
So go ahead and try to corrupt me
This drive just can't be hacked
Cuz you're working with luck
And I've got my work ethic, smarts, and tact
In the small chance that I were to fail
And do something badly, something wack
I wouldn't worry because
I'm surrounded by people who unquestionably have my back

If I've Offended Any Horses...



I trust this man to guide the Lakers through the playoffs.

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Please Don't Be Scared of Me

A lot of people I see are so obsessed with chasing down the win that they are blind to the positive effects of taking a loss. They'll stack all of their chips on the side that more ensures their chances of winning but they're losing out on what they could stand to gain by taking what is in actuality a small loss for them.

Friday, April 23, 2010

This is Bullshit!


gorillaz tcr int

I've always liked everything about the Gorillaz. From their music videos, to their album covers, to those weird live shows, and of course, their music. I can't believe they did this on the Colbert Report. I wonder if they'll ever reveal themselves, hahaha

I guess they have already? I wonder if this is the first time they've shown their faces? Are the Gorillaz comprised of more than one person? Either way, I'm pretty sure this is Damon Albarn.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Fireworks





money just changed everything
i wonder how life without it would go
from the concrete
who knew that a flower would grow
lookin down from the top
and its crowded below
my 15 minutes started an hour ago
truth over fame
you know i respect the blatant shit
when i hear em talkin
i just dont know what to make of it
haters so familiar to me
im slowly embracin it
it doesnt come naturally
bear with me if it take a bit
yeah
and my dreams are who im racin with
but you could see im pacin it
so that im always chasin it
wayne put me right here
thats who i get the paper with
i hope that my success
never alters our relationship
yeah
this life is something i would die for
octobers own
but its lookin like july 4th
but i just hope they let you try it first
this time its really goin off
fireworks

im just such a gentleman
you should give it up for me
look at how i placin all my
napkins and my cutlery
i could tell it wasnt love
i just thought you fucked with me
who couldve predicted lucky strike
would have had you stuck with me
i kept my wits about me luckily
what happened between us that night
it always seems to trouble me
now all of a sudden
these gossip mags wanna cover me
and you makin it seem
like it happened that way because of me
but i was curious
and i'll never forget it baby
what an experience
you could've been the one
but it wasn't that serious
there was smoke in the air before
and that was me clearin it
that felt good
all in all i learned a lesson from it though
you never see it coming
you just get to see it go
yeah
i should've looked up in the sky at first
now i could see it in her eyes
fireworks

Happy Earth Day!



Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Me and My Mob





Fuck a dog, fuck a cat, I'm getting me a kangaroo when I grow up.

Random facts about kangaroos:

Regarding their ability to defend themselves:
Kangaroos and wallabies are adept swimmers, and often flee into waterways if presented with the option. If pursued into the water, a large kangaroo may use its forepaws to hold the predator underwater so as to drown it. Another defensive tactic described by witnesses is catching the attacking dog with the forepaws and disembowelling it with the hind legs.

Regarding KEEPING A JOEY FOR YOUR OWNNNNNN:
Occasionally, individuals take on the task of rearing a recovered joey themselves. The rule-of-thumb says that if the joey is already covered with fur at the time of the accident (as opposed to still being in its embryonic stage), it stands a good chance of growing up properly. Lactose-free milk is required, otherwise the animal may develop blindness. They hop readily into a cloth bag when it is lowered in front of them approximately to the height where the mother's pouch would be. The joey's instinct is to "cuddle up", thereby endearing themselves to their keepers.

All of this via wikipedia, of course.

Monday, April 19, 2010

I Can't Live Without My Radio



More hip hop comedy for that assssssss!

Ho Ass Trick



LOL at the awkwardness

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Little Does Everyone Know, I Actually Wrote This



This and more at my cousin Joy Erika Diwa's blog.

Her playlist alone makes her blog worth checking out.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

I Will Have a Model Wife

Someone needs to make a movie/write a book/make a tv series about:

The story of the community college kid. I know "Community" has a lock on this, but i'm talkin about something less comedic, more dramatic. I knowwwwwwww there's a great story brewing from the story of a community college kid.

The story of people trying to immigrate to the U.S. The anchor scene would be the immigrant making it to the U.S. and they're on the flight, reflecting on their journey.

I'm TELLING YOU, this would work!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Offise Spase




More offices like these here.


I've always kinda thought that I would absolutely deplore being stuck in an office for my entire career. But modern offices like these might make life like that a lot more enjoyable. Actually, I think I would demand for my office space to be something like this. hahaha

Kung-Fu Shoes



All day.

You Got Me Goin Crazy





I've always wondered how prevalent this kind of dancing was in the Caribbean culture. Like, if I were to vacation there, would I be able to visit a carnival kinda thing every night and see girls twerkin it like this? 0_o

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Theremin



*dead* at the coolness



Mind. Is. Blown.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

I Don't Like My Titties Fake



Damn, this is so cool.

Battle For Tobacco Road



Great documentary. Well worth an hour of your time. Caught this on HBO

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Scan duh luss!



There's just no reason to be up early on Saturday mornings anymore. haha

Thursday, April 8, 2010

What I Saw Today



Dope shit. It's like the Sartorialist with a twist

This and more at What I Saw Today.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Independent's Day



Check this out and more from my brother Edmilliondaire and his trip to New York.

His slideshows are nice. Fuckin phenomenal.

One On One



No lie, I really like this. hahaha

Props to mi hermana and her boyfriend Ryan.

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Family Business

I'm very fortunate to have such a close-knit family. My sister, mother and I are very close and do all kinds of things together. That sounds really simple, but I think that it's something that's really rare in the society that I live in. My family is honest with each other, keeps little to no secrets from each other, and can stand each other's weaknesses and faults. I really don't mind being out with my family, or kickin it with just my mom. I only know a handful of families that function like this, and it all makes me feel so blessed.

I'm a momma's boy, but only if I'm also a sister's boy. My sister is a momma's girl, only if she's a brother's girl. I like to think that I'm a good son, but part of that is because my mother is such a great parental figure for me. I like to think that the opposite is true as well, that my mother is a great parental figure because my sister and I are great kids. I really hope that I'll be blessed enough to have a family of my own like this one day.

A Night Off



Some smooth shit to cuddle up to ;)

P.S. please don't mind the shitty video, just admire the song LOL

Friday, April 2, 2010

Champion(As a Verb)

I've been wanting to make a list of songs that I would consider the "soundtrack to my life." The list of songs would include one song each for different things that I thought represented me. One song would represent my childhood, one song would represent how I felt about love, one song would represent where I hope to be in the future, and so on and so forth, until I compiled an entire cd worth of songs that I felt accurately depicted my life.

When trying to go about this task, however, I came up with all kinds of challenges. Was there a way to really capture an entire aspect of who I am with just one song? How well would those songs depict what I would want them to depict?

Also, I realized that a lot of the songs would be time specific. I might feel that the songs I chose reflected very well what I wanted them to reflect, but maybe that was only so because I had listened to those particular songs lately.

To add on to the time specificity, each of the songs I would pick could easily be replaced tomorrow by a song that I felt better reflected what I hoped to depict.

This really troubled me, because I was really hoping to compile this cd and play it back, and possibly reflect on my life in the past, my life in the present, and how I envision my life in the future. Since I've failed at making this cd, I picked one song that I feel could represent me in my entirety.

Although it's impossible for a song to represent every aspect about me, I think that the song I chose is the song that best defines who I am. This song is "Little Bit" by Lykke Li.

This song is great because it is such an honest song that dares to delve into the parts about you that you probably don't talk about very often. There's elements of honesty, insecurity, trust, and love. These are all things that I've found myself dealing with my entire life.

Although the song was probably written with something very specific in mind, I feel that I can relate it to most all different parts of me. A major part of my life is figuring out what love is. What does it have to do with me? Why do I feel it for the few people I do feel it for? Where does it come from? Does it really exist? Like any other 19 year old, I'm curious as hell about love. It's fucking fascinating and I'm constantly on the lookout for ways that it affects me.

Dry My Eye





I love everything about you.

Don't Go Through Life, Grow Through Life

One of the biggest things I've learned about the social sciences is that unlike biological sciences or math, there is rarely a single right answer. You need to look at all different views/aspects of an issue in order to triangulate the reality behind a matter.

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