Say it If You're Scared

There are so many benefits to writing down random ideas that run through your head. I'll have the RANDOMEST ideas at the most random times. Often times I'll sit there and think, "damn, that's a dope ass idea." I try my hardest to write those things down because they have value.

You've got to write it down somehow before it gets away. I don't even know how many times I've thought about something dope, only to have it escape me mere minutes later.

Some of these things are stupid in nature and end up on twitter. Others are more serious and end up here on this blog. If it feels dangerous, risky, and makes me nervous, it'll wind up here.

Oedipus

Man, the shit I would write for a song about my Mom.

Random, but I wish there was a way to embed mp3s from my itunes. These youtube rips are always shitty, lol

Got it On His Chest

Normally I hate these types of personalities, but since he's leading my favorite club, I guess it'll pass......

This says something about ingroup-outgroup bias. If this dude was on ANY other team, I wouldn't be a fan at all. Since he's on my team, however, I excuse his negative personality traits

You Hate the Fact that You Bought the Dream

You know how it seemed like everyone on facebook hated each change that facebook made? It seemed like everyone had a status about how bad each and every change was, and how much better it was back in the day.

I wonder if they really would prefer to have facebook revert back to the layout it had in say, January 2009. Like if we did an experiment and had a small sample of facebook users have their entire facebook experience reverted back to the old layout, would they really report that they like it better than the current layout?

On My Way Home

My Mom is weary of showing me direct affection. She never returns my hugs and never tells me she loves me (even when I tell her I love her first).

I don't think I have any ill psychological effects because of this lack of affection. It just goes to show that there's different definitions and degrees of love and affection.

Take Care

This Feeling I Would Give to You

I'm finding myself making more and more mature, grown ass decisions. I see this when I look at my dating life. If you asked me 2-3 years ago(hell, probably even as recently as a year ago), I would've told you that I'd date any girl who's remotely interested in me. "Fuck it, I'm young. I need to go out and see what kind of girls are out there," is what I'd say. I'd get with any girl, regardless of whether or not I saw myself with them in a long term relationship.

What did I have to lose? I had/have always been someone who others accused of overthinking. My ex was adamant about me needing to "think less and just do," whatever the hell that means.

So I went on dates with some questionable women. I knew going into these dates that the chances were slim that I'd want to get into a relationship with them. But hey, you never know until you try, right?

Following the date, we'd go our separate ways and everything was fine, no real harm done. But I would leave feeling empty. What the fuck was I doing going on these pointless dates that didn't tell me anything I didn't already know?

Fast forward to a couple nights ago. I had a conversation with a close friend and I found myself admitting that nowadays I need much more than superficial traits. Instead of going for any girl who's interested in me, I'm waiting out to see what they have to bring to the table. Gone are the days when I could look past the fact that a girl wasn't intelligent. Gone are the days when I didn't mind if a girl didn't have goals.

Now I won't even entertain the idea of going on a date with a girl if I feel like I can't have a great conversation with her. I know it goes against the man code; I'm supposed to take every opportunity to get pussy I can get. But I'll be damned if I go through another one of those awkward dates again. And with me being someone who catches feelings easily, hooking up isn't the most feasible option for me.

I'm left meeting different girls and evaluating them for reasons beyond "damn she has a nice rack" or "my god, look at that ass ass ass ass." Now I wanna know if she is fond of learning new things. I wanna know if she likes to travel. I wanna know what she's passionate about.

The depth of how much I wanna know about a girl is so much more than it used to be. And I think that this is a mark of maturity that I can definitely get behind.

Bring Your Body

Some of the BEST reads I've ever come across can be found here. I can't help but be a goddamn dickrider

I'm Here to Piss People Awf

In both soccer and football,
In both futból and American football,

we're seeing rule changes that go a long way towards player safety. In fútbol, tackles with both feet up and studs up are receiving red cards. In football, tackling form is heavily scrutinized and incorrect tackling form can carry with them hefty fines along with suspension.

I love it because we need to worry about the lives and well-being of the athletes we deify. Old school sports fans might pine for the old days of yesteryear, where one could take another's head off and chalk it up as sheer will and determination, but in 2012, with all the science and information we have, we have no choice but to go the safe route.

Don't get me wrong; I love a hard hit just as much as the next guy. But if it comes at the risk/expense of a man's health and well-being, then that's where you lose me. I love watching these players do their thing too much to have their careers cut short by injury. More than that, these are normal people who have families, friends and interests to look after.

It's a change that I'm glad is happening.

Buck With it

I have the most embarrassing emails and screen names. Most of them are from middle school or early high school. I really wanna update them and whatnot but I'm just not creative enough/too picky to find an email that I like.

Real usernames/emails that I've used in the past:

tigobitties619
Man a titties08
Oh Yeah 619
dafreak172002@yahoo.com
imwinningitall619@yahoo.com

Perhaps the funniest thing out of all of this is my mom hijacked my dafreak172002@yahoo.com email around 2007 and hasn't given it back. She's never changed emails and insists on sticking with dafreak172002@yahoo.com. I've begged and pleaded with her but she's insistent and stubborn. She uses it all the time, sometimes in professional matters. It's embarrassing as hell but it's a testament to my Mom's stubbornness and unwillingness to change

Don't Make Me Make You Fall in Love

Kanye-Love Lockdown


Beach House-Norway


The Weeknd-The Birds Part 1


Three Songs with marching drums but they each mean entirely different things to me

Double Triple Team

I'm so spoiled to have grown up with this guy

Don't Be Nervous I Got You

A guy and a girl sitting together, eating lunch. The girl looks pretty as hell

Jack Off Knock Out That's the Motto Brother JOKO

guys masturbate because they're sex crazed perverts.
Women masturbate because men are idiots and can never satisfy a woman.
At least, this is what I've learned from the TV.

Good Morning

The dopest nights are when one friend brings pizza and and a 6-pack to another friend's place

Don't Let Me Get in My Zone

Kanye and Jay-Z performed "Niggas in Paris" at least 5 separate times each show during the Watch The Throne concert series. That's the kind of shit that I would do in my art. Cuz fuck you, that's why

I Thought I Was the Asshole

One of the most successful people watching sessions I've had

Uh Oh I Did It Again

Don't Preach to Me

It's easy to push the pushover. I have more respect for the person who'll bully around a stubborn person than the person who takes joy in pushing over a pushover

Bitch Trick Ho

Someone who's hard to anger. I don't get angry very easily and I need a girl who won't get angry easily either. Lord knows it's hard to be angry around me anyway, lol.

Someone who isn't a control freak

Someone who is competent, capable, efficacious

Not
It's okay when she fucks up, but when other people fuck up, she's the first to criticize

Don't Pretend You Didn't Know

Some hip hop heads complain that their genre doesn't translate well to live shows, but when their favorite artists transition into catering to live shows, they complain that the artist "sold out." You can never make people happy. But you knew that Ryan, you silly goose

You're the Same Old Song

I'm cocky as hell. I'm really good at many different things. I also like to think that I'm humble as hell. But does that make me cocky, thinking that I'm awesome at humility? I don't like to talk about these things because I end up sounding like one of two things:

A cocky motherfucker who could use a lesson in humility
or
An unconfident chap who could use a lesson in self-worth

I'm competent as hell. My self-efficacy is on a hundred thousand trillion. There are still many things that I'm terrible at. There are still many things that I wish I was better at.

As a result of all this, I don't think people realize just how good I am at many different things.

Potential Could Never Last This Long

I'm fortunate that throughout my life, I've been afforded the opportunity to grow and develop many different skills. I've seen many of my peers be held back. They've been sheltered, not allowed to learn and grow by themselves. It was justified by their oppressors using the same excuses; "you're too young to understand," "you've never done it before and I just want it to be done right," "you're not responsible enough." I was left to handle things myself and to learn from my mistakes. Some of my peers weren't allowed to make those same mistakes and as a result, are still developing and honing a bunch of skills.

I see this contrast when in a group. Let's say we're making our way across town using the metro. I know for a fact that I can lead the group to our destination with no problem. I can read a map and I know how to get on a train, get off at my stop, cross onto another train and all that jazz. I'll gladly take the responsibility and lead us across town. But if I see someone who might have never read a map or led a group towards a destination, I'd prefer to let them shine and try to get us to where we need to go. I feel no need to prove myself to anyone; I know what I'm capable of.

It's worth more to the person who's still learning to get across town that they get their chance to shine than it is to me, knowing damn well that I'll get us to our destination no problem. I see no need for me to show off or display my skills when this experience can be infinitely more influential for my peer

There's Just Something That I Need From You

I have a great sense of direction. I always know where my exit strategy would be if some crazy shit went down and I needed to break out of whatever location I'm at. I attribute this to years of video games. I can read a map and have a great sense of direction. I can't believe all these years of video games has helped me in such a practical way

Ride It Out

We've got to get away from ethnocentricity. Every person across every culture has family, emotions, feelings, desires, wants, needs. We're more alike than we are different

If You Wanna Go Again

I was sitting in the Louvre, pissed off cuz my feet were sore from walking around so damn much. The Louvre is huge as fuck. Sitting there in Napoleon's quarters, all alone, no one within 50 yards of me. Maybe they were all looking at the Mona Lisa.

There are little patches of space where you get to be alone. That's huge when all you know is tight, compact, and overpopulated spaces