Desire

Lay your head on my pillow
Here you can be yourself
No one has to know what you are feeling
No one but me and you

I won't tell your secrets
Your secrets are safe with me
I will keep your secrets
Just think of me as the pages in your diary

Lyrics never look as good on paper as they do when they're being sung. This is some beautiful shit right here, and I was hoping to do it justice by posting the lyrics here, but it just isn't the same.

This song reminds me of some of the benefits of being in a relationship, namely being able to vent to someone who genuinely cares about your wellbeing.

I also miss listening to someone's problems and genuinely caring about them. As shallow as that sounds, I truly don't care about anyone else's problems as much as my significant other's. If it were any other way, I wouldn't be with that person. I do care about other people and their problems, but with my significant other's problems, things get elevated to another level.

When is the last time that you were able to lie down on someone's bed and bitch about all the problems in your life, and have that person give you useful feedback because they really do care about you? And you do this, you bitch and vent because you've given that person all the trust you can possibly dole out.

You Down?

Play me your favorite songs. Then I'll play mine, and we'll battle. Let's battle through other people's music. hahahaha

Time Space Continuum

Musical intolerance is just as bad as religious or sexual intolerance, we just don't know it yet.

This I'm 99 percent sure of. hahaha

Powerhouse

"I'm gonna have to just go ahead and call this boy.
Hello? Can I speak to -- to Michael?
Oh hey, how you doin?
Uh, I feel kinda silly doin' this,
But um, this is the waitress from the coffee house on 39th and Lennox
You know, the one with the braids?
Yeah, well I see you on Wednesdays all the time
You come in every Wednesday on your lunch break, I think
And you always order the special, with the hot chocolate
And my manager be tripping and stuff
Talking bout we gotta use water
But I always use some milk and cream for you
Cause I think you're kinda sweet.
Anyway you always got on some fly blue suit
'n your cufflinks are shining all bright
So, whatchu do? Oh, word? Yeah, that's interesting
Look man, I mean I don't wanna waste your time but
I know girls don't usually do this,
But I was wondering if maybe we could get together
Outside the restaurant one day
Cause I do look a lot different outside my work clothes
I mean we could just go across the street to the park right here
Wait, hold up, my cell phone's breakin up, hold up
Can you hear me now? Yeah
So, what day did you say?
Oh yeah, Thursday's perfect, man:."
And it feels like oooo

I miss having these kinds of awkward/shy/"omg i can't believe im saying this" kind of conversations with someone. I always thought they were soooooo much fun haha

Latin

A lot of great thoughts go through my head throughout the course of the day; many of them come flashing into my head, chill for a second, then as quickly as they came, they're gone.

A perfect intro to a quote that's been stuck in my head lately; "Write it all down as it happens, because eventually you become numb to it."

As we are constantly changing, we like to think that we'll never forget the way we felt, the things we saw, the smells we smelled. Unfortunately, we'll only remember a select few things, so as they happen, I highly recommend keeping track of your thoughts. That, along with spurring good, quality conversation, is one of the main goals of this here blog.

Leaving

They say to follow the greats. Follow their mold because they succeeded. No matter how obscure or odd their route, they succeeded in the end.

I think I would keep in mind what the greats did to get to where they did, but I would rather follow what my favorites did to get where they did. The greats may have taken a route and that particular path led them to success, but I wouldn't much enjoy emulating their route. I would much rather take what my favorites had done, mix it all together in a pot, and allow that mixture to be my guide to success.

Feel the Lows Before the Highs

I never realized how often and how violently my mood will change in the course of a day, sometimes even with an hour. It never occurred to me that I might possibly be bipolar. Usually my moods will transition so smoothly that I can barely make out the difference.

I'm currently struggling with fighting to stay with a mood that I felt happy and content with. My body, heart, mind and soul are fighting for a change, while I want to remain in this happy place of mine.

I know the right thing to do is to allow this change to happen. If I don't, then I'll be caught in a conflict with myself, resulting in confusion and a lowering of my overall mood. I need to allow this change to happen, because trying as hard as I am to stay in this mood is ruining the organicness(I just coined that term right now) of the feeling. This results in a false feeling of contentedness(damn im just pushing it now lol) and rarely results in anything good.

I know I need to allow this unwelcome mood in, but I'm trying my hardest not to. My actions aren't following my intentions, and it's confusing the hell out of me.