In a Matter of Time, It Would Slip From My Mind

As sorrowful as it is, I have nothing but love for the feeling I get when I'm at my computer, staring blankly into nothing, and I can feel my mood lower more and more each second. My sanity is slowly slipping away, I can feel it.

I'm listening to a song that sounds like it'd sound even better if I were drunk or high, which brought me to a train of thought.

What's wrong with drinking alone? I kind of want to go take a couple of shots right now, in hopes of bettering my mood? In hopes of shaking things up, of getting away from this unwanted feeling? I'm not really sure.

I think that it's a plausible idea, drinking alone, that is. Maybe I'd get one of my roommates to drink with me, but I wouldn't want to chill with them at the moment, I'd much rather be alone. I kind of want to be drunk, alone, and I'd play the part of a talented writer who drinks the night away, being a borderline alcoholic, only I'd do it for just one night. I'd enjoy this music, maybe write something down, maybe even have a drunk convo or two.

While I don't think my better judgment will allow me to follow through with doing this, for tonight at least, all of these ideas and feelings are completely genuine. I thought I'd capture these thoughts because I'm in a very specific mood and I find that while not all of it really hits, I nearly always have really cool/random thoughts when I'm in very different, very specific moods.