Just a Little Bit

I love listening to “A Little Bit” by Lykke Li, because it is such a true and honest song that reflects a lot about how I feel about love.

A part of me is terrified of commitment. Sticking with one person for an extended period of time is, at best, a terrifying thought. Not that I would go around hooking up with other single people with no strings attached, but I just feel so secure with my life as a single bachelor, that I’m afraid that commitment would ruin that.

I have problems pulling the trigger and telling others that I like them, let alone love them. Lemme put a disclaimer here: I have no clue what love is. I know what love means to me, and I’ve felt it for many people. It’s come in many shapes and forms and degrees, but very rarely has it come in a romantic sense. I know I’ve felt love before, but probably not the type of love that marriages and lifelong commitments are built on.

Another reason I love “A Little Bit” is because of the way it describes the incredible feeling of admitting your true feelings for someone. It’s such a one-of-a-kind experience, an experience that puts one’s character to the test. I’ve found that with many of the girls that I’ve had a crush on, I’ve been to scared to admit to myself that I liked them, when in reality, when I shut my eyes, they were all that came to mind.

I’m confident enough in my competence and philosophy on life that I trust that my life will turn out fine, no matter what circumstances I’m put in. However, I hope and pray that somehow, through all of my triumphs and successes, my failures and low points, that I will find someone that I’ll be able to share those triumphs and failures with; someone to whom I could admit that I truly love, if only a little bit.