if everyone had a mom like mine

every time i come home my mom gives me a new reason to be proud of her. im soooo fortunate to have her as my parent and the prominent figure in my life. i know that not everyone is as fortunate as i am. i hope my mom knows just how much i appreciate her

Double Standards

My God, this is beautititiful

i prefer the better things

i really hate when i have someone im close to but we haven't had a heart to heart conversation yet. its a lot easier to understand the decisions i make and the way i act after you learn about my past and what makes me tick. its hard to understand the context behind my behavior when you dont know my values and principles and whatnot. theres so much i would tell you if i knew that you would understand what im telling you in the context of me as a whole

when i talk, people listen

TIL that in the old days, in order to finalize a deal, men would grab each other’s testicles to in effect, swear on their balls to honor their deal.

conscientiousness

The effort and meaning is there but it doesn’t manifest itself in a healthy way(or at least in a desired way)
You want to show her that you care and that you’re willing to do a lot for her but by not being spontaneous and frank with her, you’re not being completely honest with her. You’re not showing her your true self

sometimes when i write shit down like this, i forget to really write everything out. so here i am, posting this, wanting to explain it more, give more details, and all that jazz.

there must be another way

yesyesyesyes. just as good as the original. in a different way

im loveing it

people who force their music on you are doing so in the same spirit as religious people who force their religion on you. believe it or not, they truly believe that they're doing you a favor.

on one hand, most religious freaks believe that it's their DUTY to spread the great word that has "set them free" and whatnot. them trying to get you to convert to their religion is their attempt at bringing you to salvation. so in that sense, they're only trying to bring positivity to your life, even if you might find it COMPLETELY fuckin annoying lol.

on the other hand, people who force their music are trying to do the same thing. we listen to the music we listen to because it gets some kind of reaction out of us. it might give us energy, it might slow us down, it might get us through a rough time, it might be our spring break anthem. one way or another, the music we listen to helps us get through our lives. in this aspect, music is similar to religion.

so naturally, we've found something that's fuckin awesome, something that's helped make our lives easier. of course we'd want to share that with others. why wouldnt we want to help others by sharing something that's helped us?

but this is where it gets problematic. similar to how we might find it ridiculous how religious nuts try to push their religion on us, others could find the way we push music onto them bothersome.

this isnt to discourage music sharing. contrarily, music is one of the best gifts you could give to someone. putting someone on to music that they end up loving is absolutely one of the best gifts. i cant help but encourage others to share music that they love.

however, we've got to look carefully at the way we go about sharing our love for music.

and damn, this goes for many other things other than music. but yall get the idea

no reason or rhime

sucka shit. LOL

piano or geetahr

theres a couple reasons why i often turn to video games when im trying to clear my head. for one, it gives me a level of control that you cant get from watching television, watching movies, and other passive activities. being able to control what goes on in whatever video game im playing is huge, especially in times when im uncomfortable with the level of control i have in my life.

also, i can listen to music that fits my mood while i play video games. this just adds, in so many ways, to the way i can release myself while playing video games.

even while listening to music and playing a game, i can step back and think about random shit in my life. this way im sort of distracted and focused on the task at hand. ive always gotten a lot of good ideas while zoning out to music and video games.

im all over the place right now

for now everything just seems so right

"she said it's okay, rubbed my head and told me to relax, laid a n**** down proper like she was recordin tracks, said i know you wanna change the world but for the night please, just reach over and hit the lights please"

this is the biggest thing i look for/need in a relationship. i think that its easy to come by good times with just about anyone but its much harder to find someone who can ease your mind when things arent going the way you want them to. sometimes i need someone who can talk me through the bullshit in my life.

like one night, fresh off an intramural basketball game that my team lost, i couldnt find anyone to vent to about how i fucked up a rebound that i normally get 10 out of 10 times. i realized that it wasnt the kind of thing i could vent about to just anyone and feel like i really got things off my chest. it was the kind of thing that i had to vent to someone who really knows me, understands me, trusts me and cares about me. that kinda shit only comes from a loving, committed relationship. as much as i miss the other things that come with being in a relationship, this has to be the biggest thing i miss.

i promise you im not as emo, simpin, or suicidal as some of these posts would suggest. LOL