There's a Hole in the Wall

 Fucked around and caught da COVID. Then passed it on to two friends and counting. FML.

Now Any Other Day I Would Play It Cool

I recently found myself wondering how I would handle a first date. 

Do I open her car door for her? Am I that guy? Some would say "DUH YOU OPEN THE DOOR FOR HER, HAVE YOU NEVER BEEN ON A DATE BEFORE!" Others would say that's too much on a first date. 

I got to the conclusion that the guys who open doors for women on dates are doing so performatively. I don't need to open your doors to show you that I'm a man. I'll do that with how I treat you in our relationship. Anyone who needs to open your car door for you is just doing so to make it look like they're a man. 

I'm definitely overthinking this but I think it's interesting!

My Love Stays the Same

I've found myself interested a lot in forgiveness lately. The way Julian Edelmann will sit down and have a meal with anti-semites is interesting. The way Jon Bernthal will sit down and do a podcast with Shia LeBeouf is interesting. We shouldn't completely cancel folks. We need them to understand that they're not shunned forever from society. We definintely shouldn't make them think that shit is all sweet either, but we shouldn't be cancelling them forever. That's how you steer folks towards anti-social behavior.

There's also a fine line between platforming someone who continues to push behaviors that we can't condone (like anti-semitism, cannibalism, racism, etc.) and sitting down and listening to someone who is repenting and trying to find ways to do better.

The Good Ones Go

 So this beezy had a boyfriend the entire time! SMMFH. When I found that out it HURT. Man DOWN!

I learned a couple of things from this:

• Relationship Ryan is not dead! I was so worried that because I've been single Ryan for so long, all of the cute relationship that I used to be into is long gone. But that couldn't be further from the truth. I LOVE cute shit. I'm still down to plan dates, I still get excited to go on dates. 
• The bar has been set. If my next relationship doesn't have me feeling this way, then I don't want it!
• I'm still committed to being single. I considered whether this excitement would inspire me to get back out there, get on dating apps, and find a girl. But it really hasn't! I really just don't want to do the work lol. Good things come to those who wait and I'm not in the mindset where I really want to get out there. But I'll gladly welcome any future bae who comes into my life!
• I bought what is now my favorite jacket because of this experience. That's a W.